NEW RESOLVE

I will begin yoga practice for proper breathing to aid balance.   ✅
(I bought a 10-class Groupon with a friend and have attended several with the plan to do one session each week.)

I will get back to strength training to build my core muscles and those around joints while continuing to walk 4+ miles three times a week with a friend.   ✅
(Did a Silver-Sneakers chair aerobics class and plan to continue and add a Tai-Chi class.)

I will improve my diet to eliminate inflammatory foods and reduce sodium to improve my overall health, energy, and appearance.
(I've read "The Hunter/Farmer Diet Solution" by Dr. Mark Liponis of Canyon Ranch.  I believe in him and will begin to eat according to his recommendations.  As a successful business woman, I know how to create a plan, track the results and tweak it when necessary to reach my goal.  I've done it with less important things in my life, so surely I can manage my weight and health in the same way.)

I will continue to seek solutions to my balance and hearing impairments and ways to adapt to a lack of solutions.

I feel so blessed to not only have so many dear friends but that, among them, I have those who are not only supportive but join me in my efforts.  They are so good for me...body and soul.  🙏😘

This is a recent photo of a high school friend on the left and me on the right taken just a couple days ago when she was passing through on vacation.  Consider this a "before" and watch for the "mid" in January and the "after" before my birthday in May 2014.

In 5 years, I will be the most fit, vital, active 75-year-old you have ever known.

WORKING THROUGH THE "PITY-POOR-ME'S"

I watched DVD's from two different implant companies and cried.  The testimonials showed people idealistically surrounded by family and friends and enjoying life.  In my more realistic frame of mind I questioned "I am not surrounded by family and friends, so why bother?"  (A case of the "Pity-poor-me's.")

I didn't qualify for cochlear implants again anyway.  This time, the phrases were so obscure that I couldn't guess.  The audiologist 6 months ago suggested I had done that too well.  With my left hearing aid only, I tested at around 27% sentence recognition.  With my right hearing aid only, I tested over 40%.  With both, on which the FDA bases qualification, I was at just over 40%...borderline.  I am to be re-tested in another 6 months.  Meanwhile, my name is on a list for a new study of those of us on the fence.  If I qualify for that, I will be notified.  Very frustrating.  I want something that will fix both hearing and balance impairment which doesn't yet exist.  (Notice that I said "yet."  That's positive, right?)

I've been feeling very negative lately about the usefulness of implants in my case because I believe my balance impairment to be more debilitating than my hearing impairment.  I question whether, at the age of 70, I want to have something implanted in my head.  At my age, most have had natural gradual hearing loss and many do nothing about it.  Because I was an active, vital, independent 66-year-old and my loss was sudden, I am extremely aware and am wearing two hearing aids that, according to the FDA, are "good enough."

With cochlear implants, I would be better able to hear in noisy environments and enjoy music again, but unless my family and friends begin to include me to do those things*, to even pay attention to me (I feel very alone in this struggle.), I still will not be able to be out after dark, to navigate the unrailed stairs of a stadium, to walk to my seat in a theater, to walk down an airline jet-bridge alone, to do more than one "major" thing a day.

Don't give up on me here.  I promised myself that my blog would not be just a list of complaints and "pity poor me's,"  though those things are necessary to your understanding.  

I have been educating myself, mainly through the VEDA (Vestibular Disorder Association) Facebook page and website.  A recent article discusses feeling "stuck" and being in the "comparison trap."  I have been there and know that it takes an enormous amount of emotional energy to move on; to stop listing those things that you can no longer do and those things that you will never do again and comparing what you can do today with the past.  http://vestibular.org/news/10-02-2013/chronic-resilience-comparison-trap.  In the article, author Joan Friedlander recognizes the mourning period and suggests that, in time, one must recognize that the past wasn't all that rosy; that it had it's problems, too, and states that one must find the "hero in the story," (self-confidence) and make a plan to move forward.

Through VEDA, I also learned of a study completed by a research team at Johns Hopkins.  Through their research, they have identified the tiny part of the brain responsible for balance and have used some  safe method to throw their healthy test subjects temporarily off balance.  The premise is that the reverse may be true and they may be able to use their findings to cure those of us with balance disabilities.
http://hub.jhu.edu/2013/10/08/dizziness-brain
This is exciting news for me and I plan to write a letter to the leader of that team and offer myself as a "guinea pig" in the research of that premise.

*I am extremely grateful to those precious few who do.

ATTITUDE IS EVERYTHING

Every day is a new adventure; a new opportunity for experience in whatever comes your way.  With the right attitude you can make fun out of anything.  Right.

I needed a major attitude adjustment after my monthly senior-discount day grocery shopping expedition which is always a challenge but, because of the discount and the chance to exert my independence,  I take pride in the accomplishment.  The squeaking carts, music, conversations, conveyor belts, loud-speaker announcements are annoying to some but can be debilitating for a hearing-impaired person.  The aisle upon aisle of shelves and back-forth up-down movement is dizzying and nauseating for a balance impaired person.  The grocery cart gives me some stability.

My usual store has been doing some remodeling and seasonal shifting of goods so things were not in their normal places.  There was a conveyor belt at one of the check stands that squeaked rhythmically loud enough to be heard throughout the store.  It was not so much the squeak itself but the rhythm of the squeak that threw off my balance even more.

Finally, I was done and got in the shortest check-out line.  There was some confusion and delay with the customer ahead of me, but I was unable to hear the cause. With the contents of my cart emptied onto the conveyer, I was told we would have to move to another line because there was a problem with the cash register.  The clerk assisted in reloading the cart and emptying it again.  I carry my own fabric bags including a thermal bag for frozen and/or dairy and conscientiously load the conveyor belt to make it easy to determine what goes in which bag; all frozen together, all dairy together, all canned/boxed together, etc.  She was not so conscientious and frozen ended up in every bag except the thermal one which made sorting through to put away the perishables urgent and much more difficult and time-consuming.


I got my attitude adjustment in the form of back and forth texts and a follow-up phone call from an old high school friend.  He can always make me grin and sometimes blush, even across the miles.  If my family and friends knew how therapeutic their voices are to me, I am sure they would want to wield that power more often.

EXCITED, EXHAUSTED, "LAZY" AND LONELY

I didn't sleep well last night and I don't know why.  Yesterday was a lovely day.

I drove to a restaurant to meet with a dear friend who I had not seen since high school.

The driving route was familiar to me, so no particular stress there.  The restaurant was chosen partly for its quieter patio seating and menu.  The meeting was pleasant and comfortable, so no stress there.  I enjoyed my visit with her and her husband so much that my smile muscles hurt.  I didn't notice until on the drive back home that I was tense across my shoulders, the back of my neck and my face. From past experience, I recognize this as a result of leaning in and straining to hear in a noisy environment or when more than one conversation is going on around me.

I immediately relaxed my shoulders and neck and face muscles and, when I arrived home, I did nothing but relax with a book, my computer and the TV with my favorite sports teams for the rest of the day.  I have learned that the concentration needed to move about without staggering or falling and to hear is so exhausting that one major thing a day is all I can handle.  A simple lunch outing is a major thing when you have a vestibular disorder.

Knowing that I was to meet a friend for our fitness walk early the next morning...another major thing... I contentedly made my way to bed about 9:30-10pm and tossed until after midnight.  I got up and had a cup of chamomile tea while I read a novel.  I texted my friend in the middle of the night that, because I could not walk on just a few hours sleep, I would not be able to meet her.  I went back to bed and found myself still awake an hour later.  I finally fell asleep only to be awakened by a phone call from my friend who had not yet seen my text.  By the time I put a hearing aid in she had left me a message that she was concerned because I was not at the park.  I listened and called her back but I, too, had to leave a message.  I forgot about the hearing aid, laid back down on the opposite ear and the phone rang again.  I groggily answered, explained, laid down again and, just as I was dozing off, rolled over onto the ear with the aid.  It woke me with a squeal.  I gave up and, though I tried to nap,  have been up and zombie-like for the rest of the day.

I have hobbies, housework, things to do, but don't feel like doing a thing.  This is explained by a psychologist who deals with vestibular patients who think themselves to be lazy and have the fear that others think the same of them:  https://vestibular.org/sites/default/files/page_files/It%27s%20All%20in%20your%20Head_Addressing%20Stressors%20%26%20Self%20Doubt.pdf

Of course, it is easier to just be still and alone with quiet around you, but it can also be very lonely.  Blogging about it is helpful.  Thanks for listening.  💕

I'M IN LOVE!

I "liked" the VEDA (Vestibular Disorder Association) page on Facebook and have been "sharing" their posts for Balance Disorder Awareness.  I am disheartened at the relatively few responses and shares that I've gotten from 189 friends including family.  I am extremely grateful for the caring souls who did respond and share and for those who have read my blog.

One friend who read my blog responded by email with the suggestion that I might qualify for a service dog.  I am aware that such hearing/balance service animals are available but dismissed the idea due to the presumed expense and the lack of space in my two-story, two-bedroom town home.

I fell in love with a very loving and well-trained golden retriever when visiting with family on a Pennsylvania farm.   I giggled every time he nudged his big head under my arm to have his ears scratched.  The big lug even stretched himself across my lap when I was on his level sitting on the edge of the porch.  Each time I left the porch to stagger across the field, he rose with me and accompanied me as though he knew I might fall.  

WHEN I get my windfall and can afford a second home there, I will find myself a companion just like "Blue," aka "Cletus."  (Pictured here with my grandson.)

I AM LEARNING

I've heard it said that you are only old when you stop learning.

Most everyone's retirement dreams are to relax and have fun with friends and family and I'm just stuck here by myself.  Yes, I know I  am blessed with many dear friends, but I want to be able to come and go as I please; to be able to say on a whim that I think I'll do this or that or go here or there without having to consult someone else.

If you read the links in my second post, you learned that a part of my vestibular disorder is lack of balance in the dark.  According to my vestibular therapist, that cannot be remedied.  While on a visit with my son and his family, we all piled out of his vehicle in front of his house.  The headlights remained on for a moment, but when they went off, with no porch light to illuminate the way from the driveway to the door, I froze in place.  I felt like I was going to fall off a cliff.  Someone grabbed my arm and another ran inside to turn on the light.  That has happened a couple times so I never venture out after dusk and before dawn without someone to hold onto.

Another aspect of night-time imbalance happens when laying back in bed at night after all the lights have been turned off.  The glow of a night-light is not enough to prevent the feeling of falling back into a hole.  I have a bedside lamp, but just leaning up and back a bit to switch it off has the same result.  A dear friend gave me a remote switch which is on a cord that the lamp cord plugs into.  I drape it over the lamp during the day where it can be turned on upon entering the room and keep it under a pillow next to me at night where it can be turned off once I'm all settled in.   Problem solved...at least when I'm at home.  Someone suggested a "Clapper" which would work as well.

The more that I learn about the disorder, the more questions I have.  For instance, having refused at my doctor's recommendation, the evasive test to hopefully confirm the cause, I now wonder if there is still a neurotoma somewhere that hasn't been detected that may cause more damage.  I must pose that question to my neurotologist when I next meet with him.  Because mine is such a unique case, he cannot tell me with any assurance whether or not cochlear implants to improve word recognition will also improve my balance.   Because the implant actually bypasses the hearing/vestibular system, it is doubtful.

FULL RETIREMENT

Today was my last day at the spa/health resort.  The full-timer for whom I spent Saturdays doing clerical work and some sales has decided to go part-time.  With her full-time replacement, there are no hours available for me.  In considering her changes and how it might work, I told her that it would just be the push that I need to finally fully retire; that, without the re-shuffle, I would probably just hang on until I collapsed.  I am not financially nor psychologically ready, but I definitely am physically ready for full retirement.

I have been in the formal work force for over 54 years.  My first real job was part-time sales at J. C. Penney at the age of 16, though I had a regular baby-sitting job prior to that.  In high school, I was a student secretary for a coach who was a retired military officer and, upon graduation, became a stenographer for the U.S. Information Agency in Washington, D. C. when the renowned newsman Edward R. Murrow was Director.  In addition to my week-day responsibilities in the USIA Offices of the Near East and South Asia, I was part of a week-end steno pool that worked for Mr. Murrow.

After the birth of my first son, my little family moved to my hometown where I worked as a stenographer for a nuclear engineer in a plutonium laboratory.

After the birth of my second son, when my husband found employment in another city, we moved and I worked for a while in the office of an early computer supply company; an IBM rival...then part-time sales, again, for a major retailer.

After another move, I continued my employment with the same retailer advancing from part-time sales, to merchant's secretary, to buying-office co-supervisor, to assistant sales manager, to sales manager with continually increasing staff/inventory/merchandising/training/payroll responsibilities.  When the company reorganized, there was a buy-out that seemed tailored to me as I just met the requirements for age and service.  I took the buy-out and did a wide range of temp work until I began to work for a major airline in a local call center.

I progressed from entry-level domestic reservation calls to domestic problem resolution.  Ten years later, when that company reorganized and put my department back to entry level, I stuck it out for another year and, rather than train for international reservation calls, I retired with a small pension and full travel benefits for life.

Having already retired early twice, I began a search for the perfect part-time retirement job.  An old retail management friend, who was director of a chain of retail thrift stores, just happened to be looking for someone to establish a training department to give their clients/employees some skills that they could take with them beyond the non-profit stores.  They established an entire training facility for me and soon after I graduated several classes, once again, both he and I were reorganized out of our jobs.  I was offered something different but not at all the perfect part-time retirement job, so I was looking once again.

I was offered two jobs on the same day; one as a weekend manager for a tourist attraction gift shop and the other as concierge at a renowned health spa/resort.

And this post has come full circle...

"While others may argue about whether the world ends with a bang or a whimper, I just want to make sure mine doesn't end with a whine."... Barbara Gordon

COPING?

Coping?  I thought I was doing well and I try to not ponder the negatives, but this week has been rough.

One learns one's limitations and either adapts, asks for assistance, or just does without.  It is also vital to be able to laugh at oneself.

I learned very quickly that, when something is dropped on the floor, much thought and preparation must be taken in order to pick it up without falling over.  Without balance, just unbuttoning your trousers while bending slightly to lift the toilet seat can result in diving head-first into the porcelain bowl.  (Well...it nearly happened.)

Natural movements are not "natural" for one with a vestibular disorder.  If someone calls your attention to something, you naturally turn to look.  I must LOOK to TURN.

A blow came this week in the form of a kind offer from my "much, much older" sister.  Upon learning that, on top of the vestibular and hearing problem, I am currently suffering from allergy-induced asthma and deteriorating knees, recently had a melanoma removed from my back and a cyst found in my breast, she has offered to come to Arizona to take care of ME;  my sister, who is 17 years older and still writing a weekly human-interest column for her local Florida newspaper, and who, a couple years ago said that she would probably never be able to travel again due to age-related health issues.

As the annoying baby sister, I love to send her mean birthday cards...usually a week's worth.  I look for the funniest all year round.  One of the funniest I remember had the statement on the front "For your birthday, I have arranged for the delivery of a bouquet of balloons; one for each year."  On the inside was a floating delivery guy with a huge bouquet.  The message read "He was last seen somewhere over Cleveland."

The cyst, by the way, was found to be nothing but a small fibrous mass.  The knees are just a discomfort most of the time at this point and I am avoiding surgery so far with 5 weekly gel shots administered every 6 months directly under the knee cap.

The asthma is controlled with a once-daily inhaler, but allergies over the past couple weeks turned into a painful and exhausting sinus infection and curtailed my fitness walks which were already temporarily  limited by a round of gel shots in my knee.

While it would be wonderful to have someone to do those things for me that are most difficult or impossible...grocery shopping and lugging them into the house, toting my recycle bin to the dumpster, running errands or going out to dinner after dark, carrying things up and down the stairs, and numerous chores that have gone by the wayside...I don't need or want a nursemaid.  In fact, in many ways the presence of another in my daily environ makes it more difficult for me.

Part of my adaptation involves the placement of my furniture and belongings to avoid trip hazards and for ease of moving about my home.  Lights must be turned on/off in a specific order so that I always have a light source.  Alone, I am not constantly required to hear and understand what another has said.
I have already regrettably advised my son that his family of five can no longer stay with me when they visit because of these things.  I love having my home full of family and it breaks my heart that I can no longer unless I have a windfall that would allow me to expand.  That being said, a guest or two is still more than welcome, but they MUST understand my difficulties and take care to keep them in mind.

By carrying my own night lights and a sonic-shaker travel alarm clock, I manage to adapt to hotel rooms or overnight visits with family or friends enough to comfortably spend a few days at a time away from home.  I've learned that I cannot be rushed and, therefore, must always be organized and allow plenty of time to be ready for anything.  Again, my hosts must understand and plan accordingly.

The negative thoughts have been creeping in and finally manifested themselves in the realization that I will never fulfill my retirement dreams though just three years ago they were nearing reality.  Now that I have the time, because I have been unable to maintain my employment, I can't afford to travel, go to concerts and plays and, even if I could afford it, I am physically unable.  I don't know if those who grow old gradually suffer the same grief, but I am suddenly done.  I can no longer do those things that I love and dreamed of continuing on a grander scale in retirement.

Full retirement has come...

"The secret of health for both mind and body is not to mourn for the past, nor to worry about the future, but to live the present moment wisely and earnestly."... Buddha

GOOD NEWS - BAD NEWS

Good news...latest audiogram in March 2013 indicated very little further changes to my hearing levels.
Bad news...Neurotologist took me by the hand and looked directly at me knowing that is the only way that I could understand him well even with my two hearing aids and said "Judy, what I see is a rapid degradation in word recognition."  He went on to explain that it wasn't age related (a small comfort) because it had not progressed gradually over many years but had instead degraded rapidly over just a few months.  He said that it could be genetic, but cause at this point is unimportant; we need to, now, address the problem.  I, of course, responded "Oh my God!  Am I going deaf?"  He didn't really answer that but told me that there are things that can be done.

He gave me a physiology lesson about the function of the cochlea which is the part of the inner ear that translates what is heard for the brain.  The many tiny sensors/hairs on the cochlea were disappearing rapidly.  He recommended cochlear implants to replace my natural cochlea.  They would be implanted one at a time; the worst ear first.  That would be my right ear which, just 1.5 years ago, had no loss at all and, just a few months ago, no cochlear loss.  The time between implants would be dependent upon how quickly I adjust.  The adjustment period could be 3 months to years dependent on age, length of time one has had hearing loss, general health, intelligence, and attitude.   He sent me back to audiology for a Cochlear Implant Evaluation.

The FDA has specific guidelines that must be followed in determining C.I. qualification.  The test involves the use of optimally adjusted hearing aids that fall within a required range.  If the audiologist can't properly adjust the personal aids, he/she uses more powerful in-house aids.  The patient is asked to repeat individual words, then complete sentences, presented by a recorded voice.  The sentences used in my evaluation were such common phrases that, even if not heard well, could be easily guessed.  The FDA bases one's qualification on sentence recognition rather than word recognition and I did not qualify because, as the audiologist said, even though I would have qualified if it were based on individual word recognition, I am a good guesser so the results of the sentence recognition test were borderline.  I am to have a 2nd C.I.E. in October.

How Hearing with a Cochlear Implant System Works

A cochlear implant system consists of two main components. The external component, which is worn on the outer ear or discreetly on the body, and the internal component, the implant, which delivers sound to the hearing nerve.

Cochlear implants bypass the damaged part of the ear:

1. Sound is captured by a microphone on the sound processor.
2. The sound processor converts the captured sound into detailed digital information.
3. The magnetic headpiece transmits the digital signals to the internal implant under the skin.
4. The implant turns the received digital information into electrical information that travels down the electrode array to the auditory nerve.
5. The auditory nerve sends impulses to the brain, where they are interpreted as sound.

IT HAPPENED AGAIN

It happened again.  I had been told to restrict sodium to less than 2000 mg. a day, to avoid stress and get plenty of rest.  The first...sodium restriction...was the easiest; avoiding stress, the hardest.  I had a dear friend who I love despite her volatile temper and self-assurance that no other opinions matter.  That temper was directed at me in a series of unfortunate misunderstandings.  The incident stressed and exhausted me and I awoke the next morning with another episode, much milder than the first, but leaving me unbalanced once again.  While I have forgiven her, the venomous words cannot be forgotten so the friendship has ended just when I needed her most.

Several weeks later, I had my second serious episode.  It occurred much the same as the first had nearly three years earlier and, this time, left me with right-side hearing and balance loss.  I went through the treatment for a possible viral infection once again, was fitted for a second hearing aid and referred to a neurologist who specializes in hearing and balance...a neurotologist.  I was put through another series of tests including an MRA and carotid artery ultrasound.  No tumors or lesions were found.  An invasive test was offered but not recommended as, while it might help determine cause, it would do nothing in regard to bringing us closer to a remedy and had the slight possibility of causing stroke.  The conclusion was that "something" had wiped out the neuro path from my feet and my eyes to the balance center in my brain.  Without my hearing, I lack the three things that the good Lord gave us to keep us upright on this spinning orb.  I went through balance therapy once again and practice often to remind my brain of the new path that my eyes have found.

Management at the health resort where I worked as a concierge kindly insisted all through this ordeal that, though I was no longer able to conduct walking tours, I was valuable to them in so many ways that I only needed to let them know what I needed from them to do my job.  Finally, one evening while working at the desk in the hard-surface busy lobby, I became frustrated and humiliated when I had to ask a guest to repeat himself several times and still didn't understand him.  A co-worker took over.  I went into a back office and cried, came out and said to my supervisor "What I need is to not work here any longer; at least until...if ever...I get this "thing" resolved.  I am on long-term disability from the concierge function but continue to work a quiet back-office clerical job one day each week.  Even that exhausts me due to the strain of concentrating to hear and maintain balance.  Back and forth from paper to computer screen is dizzying.

I continue to fitness walk about four miles three times a week with a friend.  When out and about alone, I use a cane when I know that I will be on rugged terrain or need to navigate curbs or stairs or embankments without hand rails.  The cane makes the statement "either give me a hand or get outta my way."

I have sold my bike and my SCUBA gear and given up travel alone.  I no longer enjoy luncheons or dinners in noisy restaurants or homes.  I still do my own grocery shopping, though I find it one of the most difficult things to do.  Because I can't navigate due to "oscillopsia" that goes along with bilateral balance disorder, I still drive but only in areas that I know and only in daylight hours so I am housebound from dusk to dawn.  Friends have suggested a GPS.  I would neither be able to view it while moving nor hear it clearly.

Mine is an invisible and misunderstood malady.  Hopefully, the following links will help with that understanding:

http://american-hearing.org/disorders/bilateral-vestibulopathy/

https://vestibular.org/sites/default/files/page_files/It%27s%20All%20in%20your%20Head_Addressing%20Stressors%20%26%20Self%20Doubt.pdf

It gets worse...

“Anything you may hold firmly in your imagination can be yours.”…philosopher William James

HOW IT ALL BEGAN

I began this blog, not only to educate friends and family about my condition, but to share my experiences with others who may be in the same situation; to give them the comfort of knowing that they are not alone.  I have been too shy to share it with the world and have not actually published it.  However, I think it is time.  The blogs that I have read on the VEDA website seem so professional that I am intimidated fearing that mine will seem extremely amateurish in comparison, but I'm about to take the plunge.  For those reading it for the first time, while I encourage you to respond with your experiences and advice, I hope that you will read from the beginning and not respond until you've caught up with me on this adventure of discovery.  I am learning as I go.  

Where to start?  At the beginning.

Having been "newly re-singled" and independent, I had just reached my full social security age and was in terrific physical shape, traveling, scuba diving, bicycling, strength training...  I was working my dream retirement job; part-time at a health resort/spa.  Rather than "I have to go to work today," for the first time in my life I was saying "I GET to go to work today.

I awoke in the middle of the night with a horrific nose bleed.  I finally got it stopped, went back to sleep and woke up with the world spinning.  For what seemed like hours, any movement caused nausea.  I stumbled to the bathroom, threw up, made my way back to bed and just laid flat until it passed.  Once the world stopped spinning, I still had no footing.  I felt as though I was aboard a ship in the midst of a hurricane.

I made an appointment with my primary care and, in his absence, met with a physician's assistant who referred me to an ENT specialist.   A few days later, I was put through tests for Meniere's Disease and the typical ENG/VNG tests.  I was diagnosed with left-side balance loss with no apparent cause or known duration.  Though days had already gone by, he put me through a regime of anti-virals and steroids in case it had been a viral infection.  If it was, the damage was already done. I had an MRI and saw a neurologist who found nothing that would explain what happened.  I saw a vestibular therapist for several sessions, did daily balance exercises and seemed well, though I still had problems with sudden movements.  My job required that I conduct orientation tours of our beautiful property for first time guests which I was no longer able to perform.  I joked that I truly was a "dizzy blonde."  With therapy, I was eventually able to conduct tours again, even walking backwards while I talked to the guests.

Just as suddenly, about 3 months later, I suffered a sudden hearing loss.  I answered the phone at work and saw the caller-id display.  It was my boss but he sounded like Donald Duck; like someone on helium.  For some reason, I had the presence of mind to switch the phone to my right ear and he sounded normal.  When I hung up the phone, I turned to my co-worker and said "I just lost hearing in my left ear!"

Back to my ENT, who began a series of steroid shots directly into my left ear which resulted in no improvement.  Because Meniere's Disease is episodic and I had, so far, only one episode that didn't behave like Meniere's, he was still puzzled.  I was fitted for a digital hearing aid which required constant adjustments because my hearing kept fluctuating.

Sometime during this time frame, I had a bad fall.  Knowing that I couldn't make any sudden turns or move quickly to get out of someone's way without losing balance, I went with friends to a local ski resort during the off-season to ride the lift for the view from the top.  At the top, I asked the lift operator to stop the lift so that I could get off.  I forgot to do that on the scenic ride down, hopped off the lift, and it pushed me off into the safety net.  I suffered a very bruised glutious maximus and a very bruised ego.
The ego healed, the butt got worse before it got better.

Three years went by and I was doing well with a left-side hearing aid, fitness walking with friends, and back to fully executing the responsibilities of my job.

Stay tuned...